Indescribable Feelings

I think i have been working in the country of kangaroos for 3 months already,still, not quite adapting to my life here as a worker. Seniors and colleagues are leaving, will leave me as a lonely junior in this whole company. Actually, life still goes on, as dull as usual with their existences. So, i would say that life is just normal with or without those colleagues. There used to be laughter among us all, but things get fishy now thus, silence comes by. True, i will not get things as easy as ABC like before by just asking my seniors since then i will have to work through everything on my own basis, doing my own researches. Minutes back, i just got 'brain washed' from my senior, saying that i have to be more independent, stop asking all sort of questions but try goggling myself. True... in a sense but still, i would prefer to ask so since you are quite free for now and why not maximizing the opportunity to ask you so? Also, i will then do so when the time is right. Fine fine... one day for sure, i will have to prove something for sure, as a reward for things that i sacrifice for now! When my anger arises, normally it will burn till the end until ashes are formed.

I have been wondering is it the feng shui problem? Since then, i am so moody and i lost my concentration as well. In addition to that, i am not sure how long can i stand till mid of next year. Man.. a long journey to go! Let me put on my thinking cap and start using my brain to think what's the best for me. I would say MONEY! But, this option has to be eliminated for my current situation and i will get back to it in real soon, i promise. For the meantime, i am still searching what is missing inside me....... *hopefully i will find it and brighten up my following days*

Clear in my mind but my actions cannot pull it away

8.30pm
Here am i, with myself, only. I feel awful with the very first wrong step. People are saying i am lucky enough to secure such an opportunity but i see it now as a dead end! I am stucked in the middle of no where. I can't move forward and at the same time, i can't step back as well.

My heart is aching seeing myself pouring those money into the deep sea, without giving me any hopes and returns. Loneliness is part of me now, i don't have any friends but just books and books and more books. I hate my current life and at this instance, i would rather trade my credits to those in Japan. I simply willing will at this stage.

It is just a matter of time for my weaken heart to recover to its previous condition, and i guess, it will recover more when i feel the warmth of others and find myself a cup of coffee that feed-me in well.

My sadness is with me now, walking towards the darkness that i wouldn't want to go in but leave me with no choice to do so.


8.45pm
Fine fine, i am alright now! After pouring, i feel much better, back to the usual me! Man.. i seriously cannot talk about sensitive issue to my mum, really makes my eyedrops rolling down my cheeks and most of the time, Probabilty is as high as 95%+!

Hola bloggie..

Blue blue ocean, i miss you.

Well i am back again after missing for some months. This time, i would like to say something about my new chapter of life. I am no longer a uni student, no longer to attend lectures & tutes, no longer enjoy breaks that uni students have. I am undergoing a training, studying at the same time and trying to adapt myself in this new environment. Life is not as fun as previous time, but i still have to carrying on with it as i have just started man!!

Currently, i am doing 2 subjects for CPA - Advanced Tax & Financial Reporting. I would say studying by myself is so torturing, by reading page by page without having any clues how the exam questions will be like. In addition to that, since i am behind the study schedule for 3 weeks, i find it quite tough to squeeze everything into my little brain, however, i am trying my best to do so now. I can't complain anymore because it is time to grow up instantly. My mood is so darn down now, after sitting and studying for a long period but the pages just cannot get any lesser! Arrrggg.. i hate this. How i wish 1.5 years is passed by now. Still, i cannot get away from studying as there are more for me to enhance my skills and knowledge. *I wouldn't dare to imagine it*

Moreover, it is time to think about money figures/S-eleven now. How to earn them, how to fully utilise them, how to use them for better purpose in life-future. No wonder some people prefer to just study rather than work. But, i would say by doing one task, life is quite okay, however it is a totally different story if one is multi-tasking. I wouldn't say that i belong to that group *solute*, i am just in duo-tasking only. Still consider okay, aite? But but,.. not okay when i am just new, hence, i am hoping things are going smoothly and better from time to time.

Man..... i wanna finish at least 35 pages today. So, i better leave you, my bloggie now. See you again in real soon. Thank you for listening! :D

BLESSINGS

*~Getting nearer and closer to the nature, feel YOU in my heart~*

A Small Small Touch - Up Gathering

Yesterday we had an ultra small gathering at Gilbert's place. It was as small as 4 - which included Gilbert, Madeline, Shermay and mua. Just a catch up with one and another since we hardly mix together these days as we have our very own paths chosen.

The food was cooked by mua, of course, all of er'm were vegetarian food, hehe. Of course i had some help from my dearest friends as well. *Couldn't have done well without their help* :D

'Stories telling' for some time, chin wag-ing here and there and the time just passed by us, just like that *clip*.

~Appreciate every moment we have together~


Veggie eggs, tom yam fish, XO broccolies and baked (mashed) potatoes (not shown here, was in the oven for baking, lol)


Fruit cake from Shermay *thanks*

Smart Guess

Hit the jackpot with an intelligent guess!
Today, i am on cloud nine because i have learnt something new. The feeling is just fabulous! With the advise given, guess i will be back on track.
Hopefully the outcome will be an ideal one! :D

Things have started to go smoothly, again! Yey!


Got this from a friend's webpage, find it so adorable ^^

Stones on my Shoulders?

There is a clash for my ECON1020 exam with mua IELTS exam *Sigh*
Even if i am granted with a special exam, i will still be having 2 exams on the same day, which is on 15th Sept. If i choose to take my ECON1020 on time which is on 4th Sept, i will then have to forgo my opportunity of taking the IELTS test by changing it to another day, provided $70 is paid to the faculty, if not, i will forfeit $317.

Man.. why is this happening to me? I don't wanna screw up anything because this is my very last semester for being a full time student. At the same time, i don't wanna let myself down, i wanna achieve it once and for all and i mean it!

Will see how well is my progress.
*Fingers crossed* ^-^V

Butterflies in my Tummy

Butterfly oh butterfly..
You look beautiful but not the case when you were once an ugly caterpillar.

My soul used to fly together with you as i was attracted by your beauty..
But, not really anymore when you have become a prey for the predators.

Danger and unsafe are the feelings i got when you are hunted..
However, still, i will be looking at you at the high edge, feel you in my heart.

Your delegated wings flipped..
My supports to you.

Giving you strength..
For you and i to move further on.

Heeelllooo Blog!

I'm back to blog again, duh! Haha :D
Well well, let's see what had happened lately.
After the exam, we (Ching Yee, Gilbert, Madeline, Shermay, Zhang Lei and I) went to paint the town red at Harbour Town before i went off to Melbourne city for an express internship. That day was fairly okay except for some conflicts appeared. Oh well, we are humans, for sure there will be conflicts, just a matter of serious or otherwise.

That was the very last day i got to hang out with my dear friend- Zhang Lei and yes, i really do miss her heaps! All the best to her and we will meet again at the end of the year! ;D

How is Melbourne? Splendid! Loving it! Melbourne is indeed a wonderful city with friendly people living in it. I am so lucky enough to meet my uncle and his family members, my colleagues & my new friends made in Melbourne! Thinking back, by replenishing, time really flies so fast until i can't believe i have actually came back to Brissie to continue my very last semester. Fuyoooooh...... never am i going to believe in this fact, still.


Home party by Emily & Shawn - Pic 1


Home party by Emily & Shawn - Pic 2

It's a bit sad that we (Angela & i) didn't manage to enfore our plan-to drive from Melbourne city to Phillip Island. Hopefully the success rate of doing so next time is 100%! Haha XD

Never can i say i have actually been to Melbourne because i didn't really go to anywhere except to some places to have lunch/tea time/ dinner, lol! A special thank you to Emily and Shawn that took me around for 2 days. *How touching*

Also, i need to thank Ting that taught my a lot during the duration of my express internship, *thank you so much*.

That's quite about it for my trip to Melbourne, my super short summary, haha.

Now, there are quite a number of plans in my hand, hopefully things will run smoothly according to what i have planned. I need to get things done just once and for all without leaving regrets behind, and yea, this is me. And, i want will let it happen and hopesfully it will happen, together with the help from Him.

That's all for now. Will have some blog posts recently as i need to practise in writing again, hehe.

*Sorry that i only have 2 photos from Melbourne and that proves that i really did work hard in the office, lol!*

ExAm FeVeR

Again, the fever is on. Less than 12 days for me to do my revision for four subjects. The worst is ECON 2300 is examinable from topic 1 to topic 11!!!!!!!!! What the what?! Theory questions are worth 50%+. This is crazy man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Real crazy!
Shit happens! @@ This is NOT stated in the course profile though, and yet, it turns out like this! Hulala.......... *headache*

Another thing, i feel sorry for Elise as she has to deffer due to her illness. God bless her along the way, hope that she will recover ASAP *fingers crossed*
-We will miss you, always :)-

That's about it for today! I have no say for any further. Cheers!


Girl, we will miss you! :D *Wink*

Shermay's BIG Day

Due to the ECON2300 quiz that is coming up awfully soon, we celebrated Shermay's birthday 2 days earlier ahead. The day began with us, having dim sum at sunnybank- not Feng Lin but Sangarila. I was told the food ain't tasty as Feng Lin's and it is pretty costly as well. Oh well, never try never know. Once in the very blue moon is alright, hehe.

After that, we wondered around for about 1.30 hours without knowing what to do and ended up in the Hazel bubble tea shop in the city. The surprise started at there where Madeline and Yoyo brought in the birthday cake. Tada!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happie Burfday, Shermay!

Later that, we went to the valley for karaoke. AND....... sing! Bla2............

That's about it, no in the mood to blog, hehe.


Cheesecake baked by Madeline ^^


Shermay & her birthday cake ^0^


Us except the guys, haha ^.<


The guys and Shermay >.^


Singing time! ^v^


Karaoke2 ^-^

Plan(s)

Currently, we are half way through the year of 2010. And, i am thinking of what to do at the end of the year IF i get to go back to Malaysia, haha.
(1)Undergo a minor surgery
(2)Have a new fringe-hair cut
(3)Wanna consume the food that i didn't manage to eat earlier due to limited amount of time i had
(4)Meet up my buddies :D
(5)Take ang pao!!!!!!!!!! Haha
&........... bla2

*So happy to think about it*

North StrandBroke Island

Wonder where is that? The only thing i know for sure is that the journey is quite long as one needs to take a train to Cleveland. From there, one needs to take a bus to the port. Yeap, port! As one needs to take a water taxi to reach the island. After reaching the island, one needs to take a bus, again, to the very last stop before one can continue his or her journey to explore the island itself. So, the journey to the island is about 1.45 hours.

There is nothing much to do in that island except exploring around and photo shootings.

'Gamble'- Skill Machine

"Darn it!!!"
This is what i want to say at the very first place! The exam for ACCT3102 was way too easy until i made such a stupid mistake! Darn it..........................
Man, i just hate easy exams! The easier they are, the more mistakes i will make. Same as LAWS3101, i did heaps of mistakes in it! Ah, i hate myself!!!

So, i went out with mua friends, to distress a-little-bit. We went to the Pancake House for lunch at 3.00pm. Yea, lunch at 3pm! The lunch set was okay but the portion is quite small. The typical type of pancake is nice, together with its syrup! Love it! :)

After that, we went to the craft shop, too bad, it was closed early. Later, before going to the self-taking-machine shop at the Adelaide street, we grabbed a sushi each, yum! *Sushi always taste nice to me :D*

After the photo shooting session, we went to try our luck at the skill machine. Luck wasn't really with us today, we managed to get 2 big soft toys only. In fact, we should get more than that, but, due to the machine's technical problems, there go the opportunities.

Why do i say that it is like a gambling action? You see, when you put in the money and didn't manage to grab 1, you will try for it again. Again, if you didn't get anything in return, you will wanna try your luck again by putting in the money into the machine, believing you will get something in return. And this action tends to continue until you actually get something in return, if not, you will actually want to play it again and again, change the note money into coins again and again. In the end, it might end up you don't get anything at all. So yea, it is good to bring a friend along, that can restrict you from continuing to 'gamble', hehe.

Last stop, Hazel Bubble Tea Shop. I don't really like bubble teas, but, once in a blue moon, it is okay. To me bubble teas are filled with artificial colours, flavourings and sugars. So, i am not a fan of er'm.

So yea, that's all for today! One thing to learn today, never take things too easily.
*Stab*


1 of the soft toys we got, Winnie the Pooh. The other 1 is a piggy type of soft toy, no picture here because i dislike pigs, hehe.
So yea, "Winnie, welcome to the bear family!" :D

怕

海有多深，无人知；海的肚量，很无量。

因为没信心才会怕，
因为没准备才会怕。

错了很离谱更是惊怕，
后悔的过错乃是惊怕。

不懂我在说什么。。
烦啊。。。。。。。
真的搞不懂我在干嘛耶，老是办事不顺，整天出差错的。
对我自己的承诺：不要再糊涂了，醒醒吧！！拿出些诚意，把事故办好嘛~

Career Fair

Heyz guys! It has been quite awhile since my last post.
Hmmm... let me see, how many months left for unemployment?

Graduated = Unemployed @ d same time, how sad T-T

Nothing much for the career fair today as i went to have a look only, with my friends.
Cute and funny incidents did happen when they went for goddie bags and free stuffs. Of course, like always i don't like to take most of the goodies as they ain't useful to me, so, what for? I took something which is interesting from Worley Parsons' booth, a cute tiny game. Never undervalue the 'value' behind that game. You surely need some patience for it. Not to say it is hard, but, it is never easy either. You need to put all the "lovable" pin balls to the space provided. And, the board has a few degrees, from the point of view at different angles.




Tada! After all the hard work, all of er'm are nicely arranged. So, who's next up for this challange? Hehe

心情：舍不得 - Mood: Heavy

Hi people!!! ^v^
Forgive me for not updating mua blog due to my laziness. Plus, i don't really know how to blog any longer as i have forgotten what had happened for the past few weeks. LOL!
*My memory has been bleached*

All i know is that i don't feel like going back to Brissie. I like it here as currently i don't have to study but to share my mum's burden as a temporary driver. I get to go to the places that i used to hang around with my friends - Sunway Pyramid & MidValley. I feel bad as i didn't get the chance to go to Times Square and Sungai Wang as time is against the wall.
I was outside from the world for days *wondering?*. I really do hope to spend some precious time with my new friends that i met during the classes but i wasn't allowed to. Helping out straight in the holly house with a little of 'energy' may be tired but it was fun afterall :D
And bla bla bla... *Contents which i have forgotten*

Sorry that i don't have many pictures to upload here due to... you know la, haha.
Today is my little brother's birthday! Happy birthday, Jackie! Hope you like the food pressie. That pressie is so much way expensive compared to my food. Oh well, once is a very blue moon, should be fine ;)



Well well, i am going back to fly back to Brissie tomorrow, gotta start packing by then. Arggghhhh... mood shrinks!

Last updated 18/3/2010
I am too lazy to blog and i have no say in blogging. All i know, i have tonnes of works to do T-Tll

Mode: Happie ^-^V

~*At Changi Airport*~ Singapore time: 3.55pm.
I am waiting for my flight (7.00 pm) to fly back to Penang. I can’t do anything much as I don’t really like to shop. I wanted to online but the wifi seems to have problems. So yea, currently I am writing in Words and I will post this when I get access into the internet.
Never had I know that this day will arrive even though I know that it will eventually come. Man, life is just like a dream. Day and night, you wake up and sleep again. It had been 1 year I left my country and today I am going back home. Soon, I mean in real soon, you will see me back in Aussie again. I seriously hope that time can stop or maybe slower down its speed so it wouldn’t be that tiring for me. I remember I had just celebrated my birthday not long ago and I celebrated it again, yesterday. *I couldn’t believe that it has been so super duper fast*
Actually, the theme for my first Feb post should be about food. Anyhow, this post is a merit to my beloved friends and my host parents. THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE WISHES!!!!!!! Special thanks to John, Lay Nee, Lei, Madeline and Shermay! It really surprised me as I had never expected it because my mind was full of exam details and my mood was gloomy due to the 2 exams. Wanna know how I exactly feel that moment? I was thinking about ‘safety’. Since Ching Yee, Elise and Kate had gone back home, the house should be empty since Madeline was with me. I was like: “How come there are noises inside the house and the door is not locked?” To be honest, I was anxious about it, for that kind of situation. And, they came out with a birthday cake and I was stunned for awhile - milliseconds to look around. *How blur* The funny part was the photo session, man, John and Shermay are great photographers, kept on shooting pictures. I feel erm… a little embarrassing? Haha :D *I think I look horrible that day la*
After that, we had Lay Nee’s homely made Jawa Noodles *how touching* haha. After eating the cake, I indeed felt my stomach had already been filled up *sweet stuffs, aite*, but, I still ate the noodles, in fact I finish er’m even at a certain point of time I felt like vomiting due to the fullest. I wished I could stay back and chit chat more with them but I went off earlier than all of them because Aunt Jessie and Uncle Ted wanted to take me out for dinner. I am such a lucky person I would say as that night, there was another cake, baked by Aunt Jessie. When I went into the Facebook, I was like: “Wow. That’s a lot of wishes” I planned to reply them when I am waiting for my current flight, but too bad that the net is down. But, I will reply ASAP as I couldn’t reply them last night because I have to pack and clean my room before I can go back, hehe.
To repeat, thank you very much people!!!!!!! I am on cloud nine!  *Thanks for the lovely presents as well*

～·瞬间·～

一眨眼，一月又要过了。
我是该开心还是担心呢？好矛盾哦。。
很开心，因为还有少过两个星期的时间就要回到槟岛的温暖之家了。可以享受人间美食，感受人间天堂。。
很担心，因为大考很快就要来临了。面对的压力可是一天比一天的大，负担越来越重。。

我的目标暂时有一个，就是把眼前的事件办妥了，再办其他的事件。这个所定好的目标固然不易，但，也不是代表不可能的。
只要是我想要的东西，我一定会尽力获取，取得并且拥有它，因为，这就是我本人一直以来的风格。我喜欢那种毫不易以解释的甜甜滋味。真是让人回味无穷呀。。

其实，我本来没什么想要更新我的部落格，只因为我今天的心情很差，只是想在这儿写写我本人无畏的心情。我的LAWS3100考得不怎么理想，我个人觉得并不是很难，而是我法律水准的问题。我只能说，历史不可以再重演。好好的面壁思过吧～



对了，可能会到了二月中才会要一些更新，内容应该是多于美食，我的最爱吧，呵呵。。

好了，我也不要在这儿有的没的，没完没了的，因为还要一大堆的书等着我去读呢！好好祝福我吧！ ：D

Jackie Balloon

Sorry that i didn't update my blog recently, not that i don't want to but, i seriously have nothing to blog. Unless, you wanna know about my studies? Ha! Guess that you ain't interested in it.
This is my another creation by using Power Point - Jackie Balloon!
He is one of my favorite symbols/ icons to use.

Manage to guess how he is derived from? (Hint: Which alphabet is used as the key of inspiration to create him?)