~*31st May*~

Last year's 31st May was our YE Day.Was fun though as we enjoyed together. We won the best decoration stall and we were the first runner up.Actually we could be the No.1 winner,just less a few ringgit to win the price. However, all of us did enjoy and it was fun.
Time flies so fast,faster then the rockets.That wonderful event is already one year back. Miss the old days when i am in Taylor's. Miss it so so so so much...*sob*
Actually there is a story behind the 31st May, was my good day and my sad day as well. Was my good day, as i got to taste types of food from a stall to another;enjoyed my day together with my good pals;very first time to sell the nasi lemak...
Was a bad day as i was scolded stupid,i guess, by a friend of mine. Maybe the friend just wanted me to be more alert.Oh well, the friend did please me with Kit-Kat in the end of the day,instead, the friend should at least treat me Kisses or Mars,right?Haha
Oh well,miss the old days.How i wish i can go back to the old days,together with my good memories. But, there is no turnings as life will only lead you forward to the front. Might as well, take the memories together with ourselves, and create better memories together in the future.

24th May is no longer a special day

Oh well, time flies. It is already 24th May 2008 now,instead, it had passed few days ago. Used to be a special day that my friend and i waited, ended up, my friend is not showing up. The friend insists that 24th May have to come out together no matter how busy we are, however, the friend went missing that day and totally forgot about that particular day, i guess.

Nevermind...life still move on and on,isn't it?Hehe (^-^)

Will try to look for another special day for me, i guess, with someone closer.

Kawaiiiii...

It is pleased when you see cute things. Somehow, the adorable things melt my heart. When i feel lonely and exhausted, i will take a look at the surroundings, looking and seeking cute stuffs. They somehow cheer me up...

It is better to stay happy instead of losing your very own direction. You need a compass to guide you, you need to have sense of directions to lead you out from the jungle. Therefore, to overcome by not being boring, you must have things that you like to do. Else, what is life for?

Remember those days?

Time flies as fast as lightening. Day passes as quick as a bullet train. Do you still remember the remarkable days of yours?Though they are just history, you still can review them. They are your memories that you never want to forget till your last breath in this world. May them be the sweetest and niceness memories that you have had before. Throw all those sorrows and sadness away, review those good and pleasant one. Always remind yourself that you can make it a better place.(^-^).

Can i say "YES"?Or the answer is just "NO"?

Sometimes, i have to make informed decisions, just for the sake of the foreseeable future. Can i still accept those who have hurt me deeply,especially those who i have trusted most? I can i guess, as i try to forgive and forget. But somehow, there is this little evil inside me that keep on telling me to be extra alert to those who have once injured my tiny little heart.

My ex asked me to go back for him. Can i still do so even there is still a bit of feelings left for him? If i go back to him, i will surely be scolded by my fellow friends, saying i am stupid. If i don't, he will think that i didn't give him a chance.

Anyhow, after i got the injuries from him, i can somehow find that he is no longer the man i used to like. Although he tries to change, he is still no longer the guy i like. Though he asked me to go back to his side, i can somehow feel that he does so without being sincere enough. I don't even know what is in his mind.

I waited for his phone call the other day, waiting and waiting and waiting as he said he will call me. I waited for his mail from time to time as he said he will send me, but there is no mail from him. I waited for him reply but can't seem to have even one reply as last time he will reply me no matter how busy he is. I have to stop waiting because i am tired of waiting.

Besides that, he didn't do things that i think those have to be done. I can't tell him what to do as i feel weird to do so. Even he does the things that i have told him, i feel unsatisfied. I don't know why, maybe humans' needs are never limited. He doesn't know much of me as all his judgements are misleading. He likes to predict but most of his predictions are wrong. He can't seem to give promises to me though i have given him hints as these have lead to disappointments. He is still cold, a bit here and there. He dislikes to listen to my criticisms, he doesn't like me to say things that he doesn't like to hear, he wants me to be more straight forward to him though i am a girl and he will sure don't like this post of blog when he sees it as he will think i have done over the limit.He is still not firm enough in his own feelings . . How can i say "yes" to him, by returning back to his side? If i go back to him, "we" will not last long, maybe i will find myself torturing my own self.

I think it is better for me to forget everything, pretend i don't know anything and start over with my new life. Somehow, i will feel better and maybe i will meet someone else that suits me, will treasure me like his sweetheart forever. I don't want those who love to give sweet talking but the only one that will say those lovely nice words from the bottom in his heart.