~*31st May*~

Last year's 31st May was our YE Day.Was fun though as we enjoyed together. We won the best decoration stall and we were the first runner up.Actually we could be the No.1 winner,just less a few ringgit to win the price. However, all of us did enjoy and it was fun.
Time flies so fast,faster then the rockets.That wonderful event is already one year back. Miss the old days when i am in Taylor's. Miss it so so so so much...*sob*
Actually there is a story behind the 31st May, was my good day and my sad day as well. Was my good day, as i got to taste types of food from a stall to another;enjoyed my day together with my good pals;very first time to sell the nasi lemak...
Was a bad day as i was scolded stupid,i guess, by a friend of mine. Maybe the friend just wanted me to be more alert.Oh well, the friend did please me with Kit-Kat in the end of the day,instead, the friend should at least treat me Kisses or Mars,right?Haha
Oh well,miss the old days.How i wish i can go back to the old days,together with my good memories. But, there is no turnings as life will only lead you forward to the front. Might as well, take the memories together with ourselves, and create better memories together in the future.

24th May is no longer a special day

Oh well, time flies. It is already 24th May 2008 now,instead, it had passed few days ago. Used to be a special day that my friend and i waited, ended up, my friend is not showing up. The friend insists that 24th May have to come out together no matter how busy we are, however, the friend went missing that day and totally forgot about that particular day, i guess.

Nevermind...life still move on and on,isn't it?Hehe (^-^)

Will try to look for another special day for me, i guess, with someone closer.

Kawaiiiii...

It is pleased when you see cute things. Somehow, the adorable things melt my heart. When i feel lonely and exhausted, i will take a look at the surroundings, looking and seeking cute stuffs. They somehow cheer me up...

It is better to stay happy instead of losing your very own direction. You need a compass to guide you, you need to have sense of directions to lead you out from the jungle. Therefore, to overcome by not being boring, you must have things that you like to do. Else, what is life for?

Remember those days?

Time flies as fast as lightening. Day passes as quick as a bullet train. Do you still remember the remarkable days of yours?Though they are just history, you still can review them. They are your memories that you never want to forget till your last breath in this world. May them be the sweetest and niceness memories that you have had before. Throw all those sorrows and sadness away, review those good and pleasant one. Always remind yourself that you can make it a better place.(^-^).

Can i say "YES"?Or the answer is just "NO"?

Sometimes, i have to make informed decisions, just for the sake of the foreseeable future. Can i still accept those who have hurt me deeply,especially those who i have trusted most? I can i guess, as i try to forgive and forget. But somehow, there is this little evil inside me that keep on telling me to be extra alert to those who have once injured my tiny little heart.

My ex asked me to go back for him. Can i still do so even there is still a bit of feelings left for him? If i go back to him, i will surely be scolded by my fellow friends, saying i am stupid. If i don't, he will think that i didn't give him a chance.

Anyhow, after i got the injuries from him, i can somehow find that he is no longer the man i used to like. Although he tries to change, he is still no longer the guy i like. Though he asked me to go back to his side, i can somehow feel that he does so without being sincere enough. I don't even know what is in his mind.

I waited for his phone call the other day, waiting and waiting and waiting as he said he will call me. I waited for his mail from time to time as he said he will send me, but there is no mail from him. I waited for him reply but can't seem to have even one reply as last time he will reply me no matter how busy he is. I have to stop waiting because i am tired of waiting.

Besides that, he didn't do things that i think those have to be done. I can't tell him what to do as i feel weird to do so. Even he does the things that i have told him, i feel unsatisfied. I don't know why, maybe humans' needs are never limited. He doesn't know much of me as all his judgements are misleading. He likes to predict but most of his predictions are wrong. He can't seem to give promises to me though i have given him hints as these have lead to disappointments. He is still cold, a bit here and there. He dislikes to listen to my criticisms, he doesn't like me to say things that he doesn't like to hear, he wants me to be more straight forward to him though i am a girl and he will sure don't like this post of blog when he sees it as he will think i have done over the limit.He is still not firm enough in his own feelings . . How can i say "yes" to him, by returning back to his side? If i go back to him, "we" will not last long, maybe i will find myself torturing my own self.

I think it is better for me to forget everything, pretend i don't know anything and start over with my new life. Somehow, i will feel better and maybe i will meet someone else that suits me, will treasure me like his sweetheart forever. I don't want those who love to give sweet talking but the only one that will say those lovely nice words from the bottom in his heart.

Why is it so?

May i know why? Why is it like that? Why can't it be better? Why is it so, how come? Why...

Oh well, there is no reason at times though most of us demand for good reasons for explanations. Sometimes, things just flow into your mind without knocking on your door as you can't even figure out what the reason is.

Anyhow, life still has to go on and on and on, right? It is true that you have to ... unless something bad happens on you. Never know, only He knows as He arranges everything.

How you ever know why is it love is a heart shape? A friend of mine said that it looks like a pair of things that joint together, never ever want to separate each other again. It makes you feel warmer, nicer and more caring. Maybe, different people have different judging on various views and perspectives, thus, not all of er'm have the same feelings like my friend. "One's man meat is another man's poison".

I like the heart shape sometimes as it shows two swans together, like a pair of couples, loving each other, caring for one and another and treating each self better. By adding a stick onto it, it looks like a cherry, which i like also because cherry has a special meaning. Why is it so? I don't know, maybe both of the words start with the letter "C" and have almost the same pronounciation. Cherry can mean cherish as well. Besides that, i like cherry because of its sweetness as i was once being called cherry. I really like this "cherry" word as it gives me a good memory, just happiness and joys.

Give it a break

Fresh air, yeah! It is nice,indeed, after you have lived in the city for years.

You need to give yourself a break when you really want to have a break. Humans ain't made by steel but flesh. Hence, you need to stop for awhile and take a look at your surroundings. You can even bend down to smell a flower just to relax yourself.

Looking at the greens will make you feel better, relax yourself after you have gone through a tired journey. Cheer yourself up by having a starbucks coffee; make yourself happy by buying things that you want most; be the real you after you are have pretended to be the other side of you.

Give it a break then! Just chill...

The opposite

Sometimes,it is better to forgive than hate something or someone that you dislike. Though sometimes it may be impossible when you are deeply injured, however, "where there is a will, there is a way",somehow. It depends, actually. However, it is the best to forgive and forget. It is never easy as i didn't it is easy.

Though no one knows what you have done, but He knows everything, no matter it is good or bad. All will be marked + or -, it depends, of course.

Sometimes, it is better not to know things too much as you ger hurt easily, however, you have to know most of the things as you will be lefy out when you are too slow. Therefore, at times, it is better to remain silence as you pretend that you don't know anything eventhough you know those things. It is for your own good, at times.

But, sometimes, you have to ask when you want to know more but that only depends on certain situations. In conclusion, you have to be smart enough to make an intelligent move before you are checkmated. Be safe as times, be a little bit suspicious at times, be extra careful at times, be very allert at times and be smart most of the time.

After the heavy storm, beautiful rainbow will arrive

After rainning cats and dogs, with the little help of the sun light, rainbow will show up then. No matter how hard it is, everything will become smooth and return to the main point in the end.

Sometimes, you have to believe in yourself that you can make it a better place as you cannot be too humble but, at times, you have to be humble as well.

Sometimes,you have to work harder in order to achieve what you want, at times, you need some luck to help you because there are many people are more hardworking than you are now.

Which building is the tallest?Which bridge is the longest?Which mountain is the highest? You will never know as things change. From time to time, people tend to hit the target of the other. Hence, you have to be satisfy after what you have got,else, you will become greedy. You can demand more as human needs are unlimited, but, don't go over the line.

You have to be a moderate person as there are positives and negatives in you, so that you can be a neutral person. With too much of positives in you, you will fall and hurt yourself badly; with too much of negatives in you, you will never be able to stand straight as you are too prudence and scared; if you are a neutral person, you are able to stand straight and able to walk forward to reach your goals in no time.

Have to let go at times

Though nothing is impossible in this world, you may feel hard to get what you want, as nothing is easy either. Sometimes, you may think too far ahead, go into the fantasy world or the la la land of yours. You can have your dreams, many of er'm can be come true in your very own world, but not in the reality.

One day, you still have to wake up and take a deep breathe in order to continue your life journey. You can have dreams but you cannot let dreams become your master, to control you. Without dreams, your life is = 0 as you don't have a mind set on what you have to do or what you wish to be done.

When you are achieving your dreams, you are excited and full of passions. But, after playing all the hide and seek with your dreams, you will become tired, exhausted and have less confident to go further. Therefore, at times you want to give up, however, you don't want to because you don't feel satisfy. In the end, when you are awfully tired and want to have a good rest, you will somehow let your dreams go.

But, there is always a but, you have to try first at times but not everytime; you cannot let your dreams slip through you but, you have to let er'm go when you have done enough, do get a good rest after you are being tired.

Nothing is complicated till ...

Nothing is complicated when you are following the momentum. When unexpected things come into your life, your life can be better as you grow stronger and stronger. On the other hand, if you cannot deal with the problems and troubles you are facing, your life may become miserable, tired and full of sorrows.

Same goes with relationship. Relationship is never complicated, it is only complicated when one has changed his or her heart. Most of the time, when we consult our friends when we are facing problems in the relationship, they will tell us to forget everything and start over a new life. "It is not worth to do so, forget about him..." However, you will never know how it is felt when you have contributed a lot and the other part of yours has not noticed anything at all.

He has changed too much just in three days time. I tried to change, to be a better person, but, he can no longer see as he has fallen to fast for another girl. " Rome was not built in a day" He said i am too slow, i am impatient at times, i am... But, can he see that i have let go things that i want just to give him a chance? Can he see i have sacrificed my time just to accompany him? Can he see ...

He can see nothing anymore... Words i got from him hurt me deep and cut me till blood bleeds non-stop. Heart is aching from time to time when the incident pops up in my mind. I tried to let go and not to think about it, i can't do so as i need time. But, i don't have time to settle down as he turns to another girl that share the same blood with me and ask for her hand. Because i trust him,that is why i fall so badly and hurt myself. Because i am being loyal to him, that is why i feel that i am being betrayed. Because i care, that is why i can't let go yet. Because i still like him, that is why my heart is still aching.

You will never know how it is felt when you got two gun shots at one point of time. Maybe you will try to hide away from the reality by thinking other stuffs, working harder than before, going beyond the chess box and etc, but still, you have to face the reality that you can breathe no more and you are dead. Your heart has stopped pumping, turned cold and pale. . .