Thursday, May 1, 2008

Nothing is complicated till ...


Nothing is complicated when you are following the momentum. When unexpected things come into your life, your life can be better as you grow stronger and stronger. On the other hand, if you cannot deal with the problems and troubles you are facing, your life may become miserable, tired and full of sorrows.

Same goes with relationship. Relationship is never complicated, it is only complicated when one has changed his or her heart. Most of the time, when we consult our friends when we are facing problems in the relationship, they will tell us to forget everything and start over a new life. "It is not worth to do so, forget about him..." However, you will never know how it is felt when you have contributed a lot and the other part of yours has not noticed anything at all.

He has changed too much just in three days time. I tried to change, to be a better person, but, he can no longer see as he has fallen to fast for another girl. " Rome was not built in a day" He said i am too slow, i am impatient at times, i am... But, can he see that i have let go things that i want just to give him a chance? Can he see i have sacrificed my time just to accompany him? Can he see ...

He can see nothing anymore... Words i got from him hurt me deep and cut me till blood bleeds non-stop. Heart is aching from time to time when the incident pops up in my mind. I tried to let go and not to think about it, i can't do so as i need time. But, i don't have time to settle down as he turns to another girl that share the same blood with me and ask for her hand. Because i trust him,that is why i fall so badly and hurt myself. Because i am being loyal to him, that is why i feel that i am being betrayed. Because i care, that is why i can't let go yet. Because i still like him, that is why my heart is still aching.

You will never know how it is felt when you got two gun shots at one point of time. Maybe you will try to hide away from the reality by thinking other stuffs, working harder than before, going beyond the chess box and etc, but still, you have to face the reality that you can breathe no more and you are dead. Your heart has stopped pumping, turned cold and pale. . .

3 comments:

Dorothy said...

Just forget about everything. Everyone says it is not worth to cry for a guy who doesn't cry for you anymore. Even the guy who is worth for you to cry for, he doesn't want you to cry for him.
So, be strong like you always are. ^_________^ V

Zhi LEONG said...

看了你的第一篇文章,我心里也替你伤心。

为一个伤害你的人流泪,值得吗?
倒不如把你的泪流给真正对你好的人吧~

虽然已经是2年前的事情,
我只是说出我内心的话而已。

很高兴可以认识到你~

智~~

Dorothy said...

Haha, of course it is not worth at all. : )
Like i said, when u have the feelings, things are different.
Oh well, that is a history, learn from the past.
Yesterday is a Past, that is why it is called HISTORY;
Tomorrow is Unknown, that is why it is called Mystery;
Today is known as Present, that is why it is a GIFT.
Thanks for being my friend. :3